It was a strange evening. Not something I'm really interested in going through again. I hate doing vague posts cause it reminds me of those stupid facebook statuses but I promised to forget tonight and never speak of it again.
What I got out of tonight was that its getting to be time to get the family to a different place. We've grown stagnant where we are at and in order to move forward with our lives, we need to go elsewhere. Problem is, we have obligations here that need to be addressed. One obligation might disappear but another will last for another while. Its a bit nerve wracking and I did my best to try to just listen (I have this habit of trying to fix things when people tell me their problems, which made a doctor laugh once. He said its usually the husband that is a bad listener and is trying to fix things. Glad he had a good chuckle.) Anyway, did my best to listen. I hope that helped. These things weigh heavy on both our minds and I wish there was an easy answer to it all. I keep trying to tell this person that things will be ok. That no matter what, everything will be ok. It feels like he doesn't believe me. Its strange to have this need to believe everything will be ok. Its pretty much how I get through the day. If I lose that, then what have I got? For me, for my family, it has to be ok, no matter what.
I hope it gets ok. Not better. OK is fine at this point. What I need is for everything to be cool. Can it be cool?
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